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Bullets!

Because I haven’t posted any in a while. :’)

  • Buses are still nice. Despite having rude old women yelling at conductors (and vice versa). The nicest people though seem to be the ones on the un-airconditioned buses.
  • Chivalry is dead, and I’d like for it to stay dead. Not because I don’t want men treating women too nicely. It’s more of: I want people treating people more nicely. Not because they’re of a more generally-known-to-be-more-frail sex. Not because they’re supposed to be impressed. But because everyone deserves being shown some kindness from strangers every now and then. This all boils down to: I have never seen a woman offer her bus seat to a man. (But then again, knowing our highly judgmental nature, some of us might question this man’s masculinity, if ever he does accept the offer. lol society thanks)
  • Thank you. <3 You are, too. :’D
  • OH, so you know something of it, then? :)) Thought you didn’t lol
  • Best day ever, today. Too tired to celebrate, though.
  • Was getting quite tired of having unnecessary things (or, more specifically: people) pressure me into doing and thinking of things too much and too often. So yeah I sort of just told myself “hey you know what, i’m tired; let’s stop being tired okay” so here i am yay
  • Oh dear god why did I accept this offer; I shouldn’t have. I do want it, but. Not right now, not like this.
  • Also: doesn’t it suck when your supposed friends assume things instead of ask you directly? Talk about things behind your back instead of tell you directly? And in the rare chance that you’re told something directly, you’re told in a threatening, controlling manner? The hell is this? A game? And what am I? A pawn? Obviously all their personal interests are at play here and it juuust geeeeetttttsssss sickeniiiiinnnggggg.
  • Since when has friendship become a business deal (where obviously interests are at play— politics)?
  • I KNOW YOU’RE HIDING SOMETHING HUHU PLEASE TELL US ALREADY, WE WON’T JUDGE YOU, WE PROMISE! D: (do we look like the judging kind? if so: i am so sorry ;_; we’ll try to look less-judging i swears)
  • Dark times caused by dark things far from the assumed. Made even darker by the “choose this, or else” vibe going on. Um, what?
  • Some people only seem to know facts, but never even bother understanding why they came to be. Hence, the lack of proper action altogether. As I keep saying, time and time again: there is a reason for everything.
  • On a completely different note altogether: some people are so damn bored with their own lives, they have to actively make issues out of other people’s lives (by this, I mean: literally and quite actively [and knowingly] ruin crap for other people), just for that tiny shard of entertainment. Assholes. (Pardon my language.)
  • Working makes me hate school all the more. More time for studying now than ever. And ah, the environment is amazing. People are actually treating each other equally— no one feels better or worse than another. No superiority crap. (We do call some people masters, but they are very willing to share their knowledge with you. Not at all intimidating!) All are collaborative, supportive, willing to both teach and learn. All are there to help each other out. when needed. For once, I actually don’t feel dumb. For once, I actually believe that I am capable of something. Something that can be huge. And for once, there is no voice in my head yelling at me to “prove myself to people”. Because there isn’t anything to prove here. There are only things to learn. And to improve on. Both as a team and as an individual. It’s just so… wow. I feel like I’ve been missing out a lot from the good side of the fence. These people are… really good people. It’s just… nice… to feel this way— to know that such feelings exist, such groups of people exist, such camaraderie exists! Ah, and everyone’s so honest, but still so nice, like they’d be all “I’m only saying this so you can improve, because I want to see you improve, because I care about what you’re doing,” and then they’ll give suggestions— which you can agree with and disagree with and ahh your opinion actually matters here, and you’re given time to explain what you think and why you think that way and ahhhhhjlakjflegj I’m kind of sad my internship ends in two weeks… but I’m glad I will be in constant contact with these people over the course of the year. For important reasons. Hopefully schoolwork doesn’t interfere with this. (And vice-versa.)
  • It’s funny how emotions can be so easily feigned online. =)) :(( ;_; T_T y_y :’D Haha but you’d only be fooling yourself if you did feign them. *u*
  • I want to be a lot of things but oh my where do I even begin?
  • I really need to read V for Vendetta soon. I think I’m going to have to resort to downloading for now, then buy the real thing (packaged with V’s mask!!!) ages later
Sooooo Slick2D had a particle editor (called Pedigree hihi so cute ;u;) packaged with it all this time. *u*
Ahhhh I enjoyed playing with this. :&#8217;) Plus my game has some awesome-o (it&#8217;s gonna be a thing) effects now yay ;u;
On a more serious note: I chose Slick2D / Java for my first game because it&#8217;s something I&#8217;m familiar and somewhat confident with. I could&#8217;ve chosen to develop my game in Unity but I guess I didn&#8217;t because I saw no practical use for it. Apparently my mind&#8217;s not quite set for game dev&#8230; yet? Hmm.

Sooooo Slick2D had a particle editor (called Pedigree hihi so cute ;u;) packaged with it all this time. *u*

Ahhhh I enjoyed playing with this. :’) Plus my game has some awesome-o (it’s gonna be a thing) effects now yay ;u;

On a more serious note: I chose Slick2D / Java for my first game because it’s something I’m familiar and somewhat confident with. I could’ve chosen to develop my game in Unity but I guess I didn’t because I saw no practical use for it. Apparently my mind’s not quite set for game dev… yet? Hmm.

Just took the Kinsey Test and&#8230; well, I got this result.
Oh dear; I kind of already figured this out on my own, but it&#8217;s rather different if a (quite) reliable test you took tells you that, &#8220;Hey, this is who you are.&#8221;
Hmm. Not that I&#8217;m not sexually aroused, or anything? (Okay what an awkward thing to talk about, but this is the internet, for crying out loud!) I mean, maybe I know how it feels like to be aroused or something? I don&#8217;t know! But, the thing is, I have never felt sexually attracted to anyone, ever. I mean, I should know, right? D:
The questions are all about sexual attraction, so, um okay I kind of just zoomed past each question. Wait did I do this right? I mean, I&#8217;m not sexually attracted to anyone&#8212; it doesn&#8217;t mean that I don&#8217;t get attracted to anyone.
&#8230; is this something bad?
Anyway, link to the test: here.

Just took the Kinsey Test and… well, I got this result.

Oh dear; I kind of already figured this out on my own, but it’s rather different if a (quite) reliable test you took tells you that, “Hey, this is who you are.”

Hmm. Not that I’m not sexually aroused, or anything? (Okay what an awkward thing to talk about, but this is the internet, for crying out loud!) I mean, maybe I know how it feels like to be aroused or something? I don’t know! But, the thing is, I have never felt sexually attracted to anyone, ever. I mean, I should know, right? D:

The questions are all about sexual attraction, so, um okay I kind of just zoomed past each question. Wait did I do this right? I mean, I’m not sexually attracted to anyone— it doesn’t mean that I don’t get attracted to anyone.

… is this something bad?

Anyway, link to the test: here.

Frustrated.

…over nothing.

Odette.

We meet again, old friend.

This is it.

(Where the hell have you been?)

YO SUP GUYSBULLETS BECAUSE THIS DAY WAS STUPENDOUS(btw I am also aware of how unreadable my bullets are sometimes, because lol text-heavy bullets, added with dashes of capslock here and there, so yes, I apologize for any hurting of the eye)
So Ceebee and I had to go to work extra early today because&#8230; yeah. Something important was going on. And thanks to the damn bus we rode (WHOSE DRIVER WAS A RUDE SIR OKAY I&#8217;M SORRY BUT NOBODY JUST YELLS AT PEOPLE LIKE THAT IF THERE&#8217;S A WAY TO SAY IT NICELY AND MORE HELPFULLY UGH&#8212; and instructing people nicely will actually get people to follow you so wth you&#8217;re wasting your breath man), we arrived at work an hour later than we were supposed to. HU HU HU first time I felt so horrible at work. :&lt; (not like anyone got mad at us, but still).
Things started going up when one our project managers came in the room and went all, &#8220;Chynna, laban ka sa Tekken Tournament mamaya. Papalitan mo si ________.&#8221; So cool okay I am so honored. DO YOU KNOW HOW SERIOUSLY THESE GUYS TAKE TEKKEN!??!/1?! THEY TAKE IT VERY SERIOUSLY OKAY AND UGH TO BE INVITED TO THE TOURNAMENT?!?!! OKAY THEY HAVE LISTS OF MATCHES OKAY, AND THEY HAVE FOUR HOUSES/TEAMS THAT STRATEGIZE ON THEIR STRATEGIES WUT BUT YEAH. I MEAN, I PLAY TEKKEN ON GAME NIGHTS BUT NOT ON ZE TOURNEYS SO OKAY WHOAH!!!! And on a team, too! PRESSURE. I was shaking the entire time, okay. Because these guys are good okay REALLY GOOD. The bad kind of shaking!!! But&#8230;
We won. Ceebee and I won our match. &lt;3 HOHOHO
I was actually productive today. :D Got to add some coins and this extra other thing to my game&#8212; nope, not telling what it is until it&#8217;s done. :&#8217;) Hint: I enjoy games like these. ;)
Super excited for Ceebee~ &lt;3 she&#8217;s making a new game this week and groar it&#8217;s kinda huge (!!!) so yeah! I&#8217;m pretty excited for her ;u; Plus huhu I really want to try to help out as much as I can, because most of the time, I find myself just&#8230; reading articles at work because I&#8217;m constantly caught up in a mental block. D: Apparently, I&#8217;ve already placed all my ideas onto my game so I&#8217;m&#8230; out. Haha!
Our boss got to talk to us a while ago, though, and wah all our talks with our boss makes me really really really glad to have him as our boss. I mean, he&#8217;s really charismatic&#8212; the kind that not only motivates, but inspires and makes one enthusiastic to actually do something. Aww man, and he gives really awesome suggestions, and he really gets what you want to tell him grah that&#8217;s just so awesome. And he&#8217;s so easy to talk to&#8212; you can just tell him anything, really, and he&#8217;ll add on to that. NOW THAT IS COLLABORATION. He is really, really honest, too&#8212; he&#8217;d really criticize our work, but he&#8217;d always tell us that it&#8217;s greatly needed for us to learn how to accept criticism, because once we get to publish some games, there&#8217;d be, more often than not, people who are going to hate our games. Also, wah. And he talks to everyone, he never belittles anyone&#8217;s job! So cool, so cool. I&#8217;m just so happy with everything here&#8230; but I still catch myself wondering if /this/ is what I really want to end up as. We&#8217;ll see.
The bus we rode home had Criss Angel on TV. Sorta inspired me to think up some sort of trick I can use on my cousins on the way home. &gt;:) BEWARES
First time I ever set directly behind the driver. Okay whoah scariest place to sit on the bus&#8212; ROLLER COASTER RIDE. Especially on flyovers. ;_;
No Katipunan jeeps going in and out of UP by the time I get there. So I end up walking the long (dark) stretch outside GT Toyota towards the jeepneys outside. Scariest part of everyday, but it must be done. \(&gt;o&lt;)/ NO, TRICYCLES ARE EXPENSIVE /cheapskate

YO SUP GUYS
BULLETS BECAUSE THIS DAY WAS STUPENDOUS
(btw I am also aware of how unreadable my bullets are sometimes, because lol text-heavy bullets, added with dashes of capslock here and there, so yes, I apologize for any hurting of the eye)

  • So Ceebee and I had to go to work extra early today because… yeah. Something important was going on. And thanks to the damn bus we rode (WHOSE DRIVER WAS A RUDE SIR OKAY I’M SORRY BUT NOBODY JUST YELLS AT PEOPLE LIKE THAT IF THERE’S A WAY TO SAY IT NICELY AND MORE HELPFULLY UGH— and instructing people nicely will actually get people to follow you so wth you’re wasting your breath man), we arrived at work an hour later than we were supposed to. HU HU HU first time I felt so horrible at work. :< (not like anyone got mad at us, but still).
  • Things started going up when one our project managers came in the room and went all, “Chynna, laban ka sa Tekken Tournament mamaya. Papalitan mo si ________.” So cool okay I am so honored. DO YOU KNOW HOW SERIOUSLY THESE GUYS TAKE TEKKEN!??!/1?! THEY TAKE IT VERY SERIOUSLY OKAY AND UGH TO BE INVITED TO THE TOURNAMENT?!?!! OKAY THEY HAVE LISTS OF MATCHES OKAY, AND THEY HAVE FOUR HOUSES/TEAMS THAT STRATEGIZE ON THEIR STRATEGIES WUT BUT YEAH. I MEAN, I PLAY TEKKEN ON GAME NIGHTS BUT NOT ON ZE TOURNEYS SO OKAY WHOAH!!!! And on a team, too! PRESSURE. I was shaking the entire time, okay. Because these guys are good okay REALLY GOOD. The bad kind of shaking!!! But…
  • We won. Ceebee and I won our match. <3 HOHOHO
  • I was actually productive today. :D Got to add some coins and this extra other thing to my game— nope, not telling what it is until it’s done. :’) Hint: I enjoy games like these. ;)
  • Super excited for Ceebee~ <3 she’s making a new game this week and groar it’s kinda huge (!!!) so yeah! I’m pretty excited for her ;u; Plus huhu I really want to try to help out as much as I can, because most of the time, I find myself just… reading articles at work because I’m constantly caught up in a mental block. D: Apparently, I’ve already placed all my ideas onto my game so I’m… out. Haha!
  • Our boss got to talk to us a while ago, though, and wah all our talks with our boss makes me really really really glad to have him as our boss. I mean, he’s really charismatic— the kind that not only motivates, but inspires and makes one enthusiastic to actually do something. Aww man, and he gives really awesome suggestions, and he really gets what you want to tell him grah that’s just so awesome. And he’s so easy to talk to— you can just tell him anything, really, and he’ll add on to that. NOW THAT IS COLLABORATION. He is really, really honest, too— he’d really criticize our work, but he’d always tell us that it’s greatly needed for us to learn how to accept criticism, because once we get to publish some games, there’d be, more often than not, people who are going to hate our games. Also, wah. And he talks to everyone, he never belittles anyone’s job! So cool, so cool. I’m just so happy with everything here… but I still catch myself wondering if /this/ is what I really want to end up as. We’ll see.
  • The bus we rode home had Criss Angel on TV. Sorta inspired me to think up some sort of trick I can use on my cousins on the way home. >:) BEWARES
  • First time I ever set directly behind the driver. Okay whoah scariest place to sit on the bus— ROLLER COASTER RIDE. Especially on flyovers. ;_;
  • No Katipunan jeeps going in and out of UP by the time I get there. So I end up walking the long (dark) stretch outside GT Toyota towards the jeepneys outside. Scariest part of everyday, but it must be done. \(>o<)/ NO, TRICYCLES ARE EXPENSIVE /cheapskate
Comics! From Free Comic Book Day. All these are free except for the Gambit one at the very right.
I read The Red Ten last night (the one under The Gambit) and can I just say: I love it so much but I have no way of getting my hands on future issues (relative to this one). T__T
Going to read the Gambit one later. :&#8217;) Dunno why, but I think I&#8217;ve always wanted to know more about him. Because uhm cards and tricks and whatnot. AND HIS NAME IS &#8220;GAMBIT&#8221; FOR CRYING OUT LOUD. And I first learned of him from my uncle, who&#8217;s very much into Marvel stuff, so he keeps on buying these really expensive action figures for his collection. The first he bought was this awesome Spiderman one that can actually swing from wherever you put him. And wow all his joints were moveable it was so awesome. The next one, I think was the Hulk. And lots more followed until he bought this guy, the Gambit and wow he looked so magical I wanted to know more of him.
AND NOW I WILL MWAHAHAHAHA *happy*
By the way, let me get things out of the way: I LOVE LOVE LOVE reading comics BUT I am NOT really into reading Marvel and DC comics (as much as I&#8217;d want to). I dunno, I kind of get distracted by the font and the old art (lovely though, but its combination with the font&#8230; D: ) that I end up not reading them at all. Like, when reading the daily comics in The Inquirer or The Manila Bulletin, I&#8217;d usually skip the Marvel/DC/superhero ones because they follow the same format. ALSO, reading Marvel/DC comics&#8217;d mean I&#8217;d have to buy previous/next issues, which I&#8217;ve outgrown (remember those W.I.T.C.H. comics? I used to collect them. Until around, issue 40 or something. Because I realized I could spend my money buying better things, and I think I got bored of the plot already by then? I DON&#8217;T KNOW HUHU kind of nostalgic though; I miss WITCH.)
Again, I really liked The Red Ten. And I haven&#8217;t read Watchmen yet (hrgh frustration of mine because gurhgurhgrhuh I REALLY WANT TO!) and V for Vendetta (HRGH ANOTHER FRUSTRATION UGH THEY WERE SELLING V MASKS OKAY WITH THE BOOK OKAY AND I HAD NO MONEY OKAY) (I watched both movies though ;o; but that&#8217;s not enough for me, now, is it?) and wow I just really enjoy the plots that focus on the more human side (okay more on the flaws) of the superheroes rather than everything good about them. Can relate more to them I guess&#8212; can place yourself in their shoes in a more realistic way than with what you did as a kid. (Also: I like plots having to do with anarchy and messing up the system&#8212; which is why I want to read V for Vendetta urgh).
AW MAN SO YEAH I really have to get used to reading these kinds of comics if I really want to end up appreciating them.
I actually kind of feel guilty for liking Marvel and DC solely because of their movies, and not of what they&#8217;re actually known for, anyway. So, again, I really have to get used to reading these kinds of comics.
SORRY LOL TL;DR POST BUT OKAY COMICS

Comics! From Free Comic Book Day. All these are free except for the Gambit one at the very right.

I read The Red Ten last night (the one under The Gambit) and can I just say: I love it so much but I have no way of getting my hands on future issues (relative to this one). T__T

Going to read the Gambit one later. :’) Dunno why, but I think I’ve always wanted to know more about him. Because uhm cards and tricks and whatnot. AND HIS NAME IS “GAMBIT” FOR CRYING OUT LOUD. And I first learned of him from my uncle, who’s very much into Marvel stuff, so he keeps on buying these really expensive action figures for his collection. The first he bought was this awesome Spiderman one that can actually swing from wherever you put him. And wow all his joints were moveable it was so awesome. The next one, I think was the Hulk. And lots more followed until he bought this guy, the Gambit and wow he looked so magical I wanted to know more of him.

AND NOW I WILL MWAHAHAHAHA *happy*

By the way, let me get things out of the way: I LOVE LOVE LOVE reading comics BUT I am NOT really into reading Marvel and DC comics (as much as I’d want to). I dunno, I kind of get distracted by the font and the old art (lovely though, but its combination with the font… D: ) that I end up not reading them at all. Like, when reading the daily comics in The Inquirer or The Manila Bulletin, I’d usually skip the Marvel/DC/superhero ones because they follow the same format. ALSO, reading Marvel/DC comics’d mean I’d have to buy previous/next issues, which I’ve outgrown (remember those W.I.T.C.H. comics? I used to collect them. Until around, issue 40 or something. Because I realized I could spend my money buying better things, and I think I got bored of the plot already by then? I DON’T KNOW HUHU kind of nostalgic though; I miss WITCH.)

Again, I really liked The Red Ten. And I haven’t read Watchmen yet (hrgh frustration of mine because gurhgurhgrhuh I REALLY WANT TO!) and V for Vendetta (HRGH ANOTHER FRUSTRATION UGH THEY WERE SELLING V MASKS OKAY WITH THE BOOK OKAY AND I HAD NO MONEY OKAY) (I watched both movies though ;o; but that’s not enough for me, now, is it?) and wow I just really enjoy the plots that focus on the more human side (okay more on the flaws) of the superheroes rather than everything good about them. Can relate more to them I guess— can place yourself in their shoes in a more realistic way than with what you did as a kid. (Also: I like plots having to do with anarchy and messing up the system— which is why I want to read V for Vendetta urgh).

AW MAN SO YEAH I really have to get used to reading these kinds of comics if I really want to end up appreciating them.

I actually kind of feel guilty for liking Marvel and DC solely because of their movies, and not of what they’re actually known for, anyway. So, again, I really have to get used to reading these kinds of comics.

SORRY LOL TL;DR POST BUT OKAY COMICS

Suddenly missing all my high school friends, so I decided to wear my high school PE shirt today! ;u;
(LOL kidding. It was the first thing I grabbed hold of in my closet, so there. BUT HEY, I still miss you, high school friends! You guise are the jewels of my life and I haven&#8217;t really seen anything shiny lately. ;_; //what is this metaphor )

Suddenly missing all my high school friends, so I decided to wear my high school PE shirt today! ;u;

(LOL kidding. It was the first thing I grabbed hold of in my closet, so there. BUT HEY, I still miss you, high school friends! You guise are the jewels of my life and I haven’t really seen anything shiny lately. ;_; //what is this metaphor )

meowyou know the drill
I was very unproductive today. &gt;o&lt; Mental block, okay!
Huhuhu. Rode the wrong bus to work. Was dropped off in the middle of nowhere good gosh. Had to spend extra money on taxi fare. ;_;
Oooh my goodness Chic Boy is really the best out of all the options we have for dinner. We&#8217;re exhausting all the food choices. (THERE ARE SO MANY!)
People seem so busy at Makati. Hustle, bustle, hustle, bustle. Not noticing the simple things&#8230;
Everyone. I miss everyone.
Yawnyawnyawn I sometimes fall asleep at work, I hope I don&#8217;t give people a rude impression huhu I swear it&#8217;s my way of thinking and clearing my mind ;_;
Omnomnom lunch time&#8217;s pretty surprising sometimes. There&#8217;s this dude who brings up food to sell to us for lunch (to have us avoid going downstairs to buy), and wow surprising meals every day ;u; He brings his kid, too &lt;3 so adorable
Urghrghruhgurhg the heat of the summer sun. ;_;
Florghenblorghen I am tired ;u; sleeping soon!
Enthusiasm is keeey! I need to get myself to be more enthusiastic somehow but how lol
Enticing offer. &gt;0&lt; I must choose wisely ;_;
Lonely working hours. I hope they get less lonely, though! :D
BOMBS. Landmines. Emotional landmines! (Only a select few will get this point.)
ENVY. My cousins are going to Laguna without me. &lt;/3 I have work, okay u guise. ;o;
Teeth. My teeth have been causing ALL the headaches I&#8217;ve been having since two months ago and gruh I only realized this now. MY WISDOM TEETH ARE MOVING AND IT HURTS and I can&#8217;t chew properly that much anymore!
The games I bought last Christmas are rotting here huhu don&#8217;t worry games, I will play you soon enough!
Effective. But needs more push.
Roar! Goodnight!

meow
you know the drill

  • I was very unproductive today. >o< Mental block, okay!
  • Huhuhu. Rode the wrong bus to work. Was dropped off in the middle of nowhere good gosh. Had to spend extra money on taxi fare. ;_;
  • Oooh my goodness Chic Boy is really the best out of all the options we have for dinner. We’re exhausting all the food choices. (THERE ARE SO MANY!)
  • People seem so busy at Makati. Hustle, bustle, hustle, bustle. Not noticing the simple things…
  • Everyone. I miss everyone.
  • Yawnyawnyawn I sometimes fall asleep at work, I hope I don’t give people a rude impression huhu I swear it’s my way of thinking and clearing my mind ;_;
  • Omnomnom lunch time’s pretty surprising sometimes. There’s this dude who brings up food to sell to us for lunch (to have us avoid going downstairs to buy), and wow surprising meals every day ;u; He brings his kid, too <3 so adorable
  • Urghrghruhgurhg the heat of the summer sun. ;_;
  • Florghenblorghen I am tired ;u; sleeping soon!
  • Enthusiasm is keeey! I need to get myself to be more enthusiastic somehow but how lol
  • Enticing offer. >0< I must choose wisely ;_;
  • Lonely working hours. I hope they get less lonely, though! :D
  • BOMBS. Landmines. Emotional landmines! (Only a select few will get this point.)
  • ENVY. My cousins are going to Laguna without me. </3 I have work, okay u guise. ;o;
  • Teeth. My teeth have been causing ALL the headaches I’ve been having since two months ago and gruh I only realized this now. MY WISDOM TEETH ARE MOVING AND IT HURTS and I can’t chew properly that much anymore!
  • The games I bought last Christmas are rotting here huhu don’t worry games, I will play you soon enough!
  • Effective. But needs more push.
  • Roar! Goodnight!
Sneak-peek of what I do at work.
This was taken last Wednesday and, I must say, it has greatly improved since then. :D

Sneak-peek of what I do at work.

This was taken last Wednesday and, I must say, it has greatly improved since then. :D